She's Back!

Fudge: He's back?!
Me: Dude. Fudge. Where have you been for the past year?
Poor delusional Cornelius. That's why he's not Prime Minister anymore.

... >_>
Okay, now don't start throwing tomatoes at me. I mean, you should KNOW by now that every few months I take an extended hiatus. I am THAT predictable. And hey, at least I came back. I wish I could make it up to you fully and entirely by actually making a video like I ALWAYS talk about, but as it is, my Canon camera still defaults the file type to .MOV and I still only have Windows Movie Maker. So unless I get a different camera (highly unlikely) or get around to downloading a free yet easy to use video editing program I don't think videos are going to come your way any time soon. But who knows? It is summer time for me now! I just might do something meaningful. However...

(yeah, I'm adding freaking visuals now. Get excited) (also, don't ask about that first picture because I can ASSURE you that I don't really look like that in real life XD) Ah, every summer we always say that we're going to do something amazingly fantastic that even Phineas and Ferb would be awestruck.But then we end up like me, glued to our screens until the wee hours of the morning. And instead of going outside and enjoying the sun, we stay locked up in our rooms watching movie reruns on Disney Channel. Oh wait... maybe that's only me >_>
The good news is that Degrassi is coming back on in... July I think? Either way it's coming back on. YAY!!! Unless I'm still the only one who cares. That's not stopping me, though.
I'm kind of hopeful for the new season, though. I mean, Eli and Clare were the freaking POWER couple driving the entire tenth season. You can't just stop it after one season because you will freaking get mobs tearing down the Degrassi HQ. But while everyone is thinking this:

After watching this:

I know season 11 will probably end up like this:

*shakes head* Poor Eli. First his ex-girlfriend dies on him and then the love of his life breaks up with him while he's in the hospital? Personally, I'd love to know what kind of asshole would do that to a guy who was in a freaking car accident. Then again, he caused the car accident because of her. That just screams crazy. But if she knew anything by now, doing that to him would simply make him MORE violent. He's just a loose cannon ready to go off at any moment.
Also, I'd like to know who this chick is that Eli taps the shoulder of! Is she just some random girl they put in there to show Eli's disappointment? And why does Clare always go for the new guys in the show?! First KC, then Eli, and now Justin Kelly's character? I know he's supposedly Munro Chamber's best friend in real life, but I'm never going to like him knowing that he took Clare from Eli (though Clare left of her own accord, but now it's almost freaking impossible for Eli to get her back).

But anyway, that's not what I wanted to talk about. Whilst making graphics the past few weeks, I came across two different people: a designer named Nancy Wood  who has a blog called Wolf and Willow as well as a photographer named Chris Martin.
You see, I am notorious for simply taking base images off the internet without giving credit where credit is due because everyone always says "Free for personal and non-commercial use." If it wasn't free for personal use then people would put a watermark on it and I wouldn't take it. Simple as that. However, if I ever come across a gem among all those crappy pictures I find on Google images, I look back at the source website and brace myself for complete awe.
When I found these two, their work BLEW me away. I was completely amazed and totally jealous as well. Their jobs are to do what I would LOVE to pursue someday (but am too afraid to go after due to failure). Chris Martin is a photographer for bands (and weddings). His work shows up in magazines. Nancy designs for  magazines (see what I'm getting at here?) They get to travel around the world to create art. I am SOO jealous of anyone who gets to do so because they have the guts to actually go out there and do something they love as a job.
When the time comes, I don't think I'd be able to do so. I'd be stuck in college looking for something secure that I have the passion and talent/skills for. In reality, the thing that fits both requirements for me is art, the very thing I need to avoid. But I don't want to end up like my sister who didn't go after photography because she didn't think it was enough. Now she's 21 and still looking. Actually, I don't even know what she's doing right now.
However, while I feel this way, I think that when I actually go out there I'll end up hoping for this:

But the reality is this:

I suppose it all boils down to my own confidence and how I feel about myself. However, while I want to feel like this:

I can't seem to shake myself out of this:

TWGS ♥